"I really value honesty, a good book, & laughter. #FactsAboutMe"
Oh Twitter, what would we do without good trending hashtags to guide our hourly updates? Obviously we wouldn't survive, at least without good momentary thoughts, & even some very giggle-worthy trending topics, always up to date by the minute of new happening events. I'm pretty sure it only took something like 72 seconds for #Thingslongerthankimkardashianswedding to surface as a trending topic, oh wait 72 was a number for something else.... uhhh... too soon? haha okay but with all seriousness, when in doubt or in a dull moment there is always the helpful trending suggestion such as this one from a few days ago: #FactsAboutMe.
Although I usually glance at the trending topics, maybe have a good chuckle over some, my typical response is to disregard them & go about my day. But this one made me think. With only 140 characters, what kinds of things do you say about yourself? Something funny? The most interesting fact? Something that does not require explanation? As simple as the tag sounded, 140 character facts about me can get a little tricky. I settled upon a tweet of the first 3 words that came to my mind when I said, "Okay Dani who are you?" Honesty. Books. Laughing. Those three things are what I want forever&ever&everamen.
To the very core of who I am I value honesty. I want people in my life who choose to be honest with me. Especially when choosing honesty is much harder than an alternate option. That is when I feel the most loved & the most valued by another. Through my own learning process I have truly learned the value & respect you give to someone when you choose the harder route of pure honesty. Telling a friend the things they don't want to hear, but that are honest shows the character and depth of friendship. Anyone can tell you what you want to hear, or can say nice things to make you smile, but someone who really truly, deeply cares about who you are will tell you the things that make you cry, or make you angry, but in return teach you about yourself, and your walk in life. These kind of friends make you better, & it is the hard parts of life that grow us into more profound, considerate, and elegant people.
Now beyond honesty, you may as well see me as a nerdy comedy. Beyond honesty I just need a good book and laughter. I want to read what other's have to say. What they think, feel, see of this world. Reading someone's writing, even fiction is getting a peak into their soul, their character, their childhood mind even. So much can be seen of author's in their writing & I want to soak that all up. & after I have soaked up words upon words upon words, my next wish is to just laugh. Just to sit with friends or family, or coworkers, and laugh. Simply own up to joy & to silliness, and to how good life can really get, by just letting it out, out loud. My cousin, E, & I are on this new kick of the.... drum roll please.... Heytell Voicechanger. (what? you thought it was going to be something profound? Download it, I swear it will change your life.) She & I could, and sometimes do, spend hours talking back & forth in little blurbs sounding like chipmunks, or Yezma from The Emperor's New Groove, when she's a cat. The best part is that every other message is just completely a squeeky, silly, chipmunk-y laughter exploding from the speakerphone, which in turn calls for another episode of laughing at the silliness of the chipmunk laughter. So silly, yet so necessary. This is what my ultimate world looks & feels like; honest, thoughtfilled, and hilarious.
& to think, allllllll because of a Twitter trend, #thankGodfortwitter.
Amen.
Danielle Nicole.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Twin Hearts.
This girl.
She has always looked up to me. However, I find this rather curious because she has been such a huge role model in my own life for years, which is possibly unknown to her, which leads me to want to share her impact in my life even more.
Because,
this girl is breathtaking, she is smart, her heart is huge, and she has a fierce strength in her that I definitely envy in my ever so frequent moments of weakness. I love the way she lives and learns to the ultimate potential that she can. Living by trial & error, always trying something to learn if she loves it, or if it wasn’t her best life decision, but nonetheless always learning.
Something about the way she dives head on straight into life always drives me to a deeper admiration and desire to pursue that strength and confidence she carries. She is not afraid to be herself, or to change herself as she pleases according only to her liking of herself, not to anyone else’s. And this is why I look up to her, no matter how much older I am. I admire her bravery, & want to encourage her bold, pure love for life and all that it can offer in every way I can. I may have taught her things she loves & appreciates, but I continue to grow into a better version of myself the more & more our relationship grows together. Even in mistakes & seasons of distance and miscommunication, I couldn’t thank God more for her in my life.
Her truth, her humor, and her constant love for me are ridiculous & I am a better person because I have experienced these from her on a radical level.
So thank you E. You make my life more full of life and laughter, & that, is a beautiful thing.
Danielle Nicole.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
DavisWhitakerStraubCoyDimanligHongCross
These are the names that make up my family.
These are the names that make up alot of the foundation of who I am.
These names are so dear to me, so intimate, so
The last name on the list was added Friday, and boy was it added with celebration!
Here it is almost Wednesday & I am still missing every second of that wedding night! (shameless plug: 11-11-11 Congrats Michele & Tony Cross!)
What a wonderful celebration with such crazy, fun, memorable family & friends. Such a taste of why I am the way I am, & why I want to be just that, a solid reminder to embrace even the craziest, or even most embarrassing moments with those in my family. From bridal party duties, car rides to pick up the best dates everrrr, decorating hotel rooms for after parties, the ceremony itself, then the dance floor, and all the way to jumping on the bed with your mom in a hotel room with fiesta decorations, this was one of those kind of weekends you never forget & wish would've lasted a couple more days, (or years, let's get real.) Even in the moments of obnoxious laughter (Mom do I need to say names? hahah), or interestingly borderline sexual jokes spoken by your father, or even the infamous donald duck voice used frequently by him as well (Way to go Dad, hogging all the embarrassing Dani duties), the joy and care and intimacy of family bonds and the way we have shaped each other & continue to grow in relationship with eachother weighs so much heavier in memory.
When I look back & see my baby cousin in a tuxedo & a wagon, or my brother giving his coat to his precious girlfriend. My beautiful cousin in the most breath-taking dress walking down an isle, an adorable flower girl who wants to be my best friend and dance-partner for life. Or my date dance with my mom on the dance floor making her feel young again, while also allowing me to swing dance with my dad, like I used to when I was little & he taught me. These are the memories that make me want that weekend back. It's something about the way that my date laughed through the embarrassing moments of my family event, laughing with my mother with a kind of laugh that isn't out of good manners, but instead from deep within, when humor subsides awkward or embarrassment, but is pure and full of joy. Something about sitting at my Aunt's house & watching cheesy christmas movies, & eating both peppermint & gingerbread pudding just to decide which is better, while the whole time too exhausted to think, but loving the weekend too much to want to leave & go home to bed. Something about leaving the weekend to come back to reality, but still wearing the scarf from the Bride as a gift in a last hope to hold on to the emotion of the weekend.
Love,
Joy,
& Family, old & new.
Welcome to the family Tony.
Danielle Nicole.
These are the names that make up alot of the foundation of who I am.
These names are so dear to me, so intimate, so
The last name on the list was added Friday, and boy was it added with celebration!
Here it is almost Wednesday & I am still missing every second of that wedding night! (shameless plug: 11-11-11 Congrats Michele & Tony Cross!)
What a wonderful celebration with such crazy, fun, memorable family & friends. Such a taste of why I am the way I am, & why I want to be just that, a solid reminder to embrace even the craziest, or even most embarrassing moments with those in my family. From bridal party duties, car rides to pick up the best dates everrrr, decorating hotel rooms for after parties, the ceremony itself, then the dance floor, and all the way to jumping on the bed with your mom in a hotel room with fiesta decorations, this was one of those kind of weekends you never forget & wish would've lasted a couple more days, (or years, let's get real.) Even in the moments of obnoxious laughter (Mom do I need to say names? hahah), or interestingly borderline sexual jokes spoken by your father, or even the infamous donald duck voice used frequently by him as well (Way to go Dad, hogging all the embarrassing Dani duties), the joy and care and intimacy of family bonds and the way we have shaped each other & continue to grow in relationship with eachother weighs so much heavier in memory.
When I look back & see my baby cousin in a tuxedo & a wagon, or my brother giving his coat to his precious girlfriend. My beautiful cousin in the most breath-taking dress walking down an isle, an adorable flower girl who wants to be my best friend and dance-partner for life. Or my date dance with my mom on the dance floor making her feel young again, while also allowing me to swing dance with my dad, like I used to when I was little & he taught me. These are the memories that make me want that weekend back. It's something about the way that my date laughed through the embarrassing moments of my family event, laughing with my mother with a kind of laugh that isn't out of good manners, but instead from deep within, when humor subsides awkward or embarrassment, but is pure and full of joy. Something about sitting at my Aunt's house & watching cheesy christmas movies, & eating both peppermint & gingerbread pudding just to decide which is better, while the whole time too exhausted to think, but loving the weekend too much to want to leave & go home to bed. Something about leaving the weekend to come back to reality, but still wearing the scarf from the Bride as a gift in a last hope to hold on to the emotion of the weekend.
Love,
Joy,
& Family, old & new.
Welcome to the family Tony.
Danielle Nicole.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Go thick or go home.
Friendship is hard-work.
It requires such an intentional commitment in order to be sustained.
Like the old saying, through thick & thin, a healthy friendship can only mature & digress through both the thick & the thin, the good & the bad, the convenient & inconvenient through hard intentional work & commitment.
And that's the thing, relationships shouldn't be about the context of situations one comes across, or the convenience involved in the interact.
A relationship should be all about the persons involved.
Relationship means an emotional or other connection between people.
Not between jobs, or between locations, or between television series.
Between People.
All the rest are things that may affect relationships,
but the most important,
the most basic,
the most simple core of relationships are the people involved.
So why are we always afraid to get down to the hard parts & put the people in our lives & relationships first? Why do we pull away when our location, or job, or conveniences are at risk or at a distance? Because it's more comfortable, because we think it will be easier? Truly great things aren't usually very easy to come by, so why not dig a little into the thick, the ugly, the hard parts of our lives & of those we interact with & build a little deeper?
Just a thought.
Danielle Nicole.
It requires such an intentional commitment in order to be sustained.
Like the old saying, through thick & thin, a healthy friendship can only mature & digress through both the thick & the thin, the good & the bad, the convenient & inconvenient through hard intentional work & commitment.
And that's the thing, relationships shouldn't be about the context of situations one comes across, or the convenience involved in the interact.
A relationship should be all about the persons involved.
Relationship means an emotional or other connection between people.
Not between jobs, or between locations, or between television series.
Between People.
All the rest are things that may affect relationships,
but the most important,
the most basic,
the most simple core of relationships are the people involved.
So why are we always afraid to get down to the hard parts & put the people in our lives & relationships first? Why do we pull away when our location, or job, or conveniences are at risk or at a distance? Because it's more comfortable, because we think it will be easier? Truly great things aren't usually very easy to come by, so why not dig a little into the thick, the ugly, the hard parts of our lives & of those we interact with & build a little deeper?
Just a thought.
Danielle Nicole.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Obedience.
Obedience is one of those crazy things we have to learn throughout our lives.
Sometimes in big moments, & other, & often, times over & over again in little moments.
We also have to rebel against obedience at one point, if not many.
Before we can see to a bigger view, the beauty in submitting to obedience, & the ways it grows, & matures us into better persons than we were before, or when we were resisting it.
On a Sunday recently, I was overwhelmed by the power of love & the power of obedience hand in hand.
Sunset, L Street Beach, & nearly twenty of my dearest friends & family showed to see me submit to obedience & take a leap of faith in front of them.
As I told my story as to why I felt the need to submit, I looked into the eyes of people who love me so so much it could make me cry instantly thinking of how special & beloved I felt in that moment. It was a snapshot of the redemption & grace my life continuously cycles and unfolds into. A redemption of pain & uncertainty, of being bound by fears, loneliness, and abandon, of believing lies of myself. A pure redemption of myself, reminding me of how important, how delicate, and how truly loved & pure I am, right now, even with every second of my past, & every wrong decision I've made, & every wrong decision that's been made towards me.
& As I came out of the water, I was overwhelmed with the peace of my heart & the still-overwhelmed state my heart was in. overwhelmed by love & joy coming from such a pure, & renewed place in myself.
I'm a mess. My life is completely messy.
True.
But so is yours, & yours too, & hate-to-break-it-to-ya but yours too.
But how we are so beautifully connected to one another is such a powerful & redeeming factor of this life. How just a smile, or a text, or just showing up at a certain time for a certain moment of someone's life can literally put worth into another's life, is powerful.
& to realize the beauty & power in that and really show people their worth to our own lives is so important.
So thank you to those who recently have loved me so well & so intentionally & really showed me the value that I sometimes forget I have. Thank you for reminding me of beauty, & of love, & of deep joy.
& To those reading this just by chance, let this encourage you to seek those in your life who impact you, & who you care about & not let that be unknown, but allow it to enrich your relationships & be known & returned.
Danielle Nicole.
Sometimes in big moments, & other, & often, times over & over again in little moments.
We also have to rebel against obedience at one point, if not many.
Before we can see to a bigger view, the beauty in submitting to obedience, & the ways it grows, & matures us into better persons than we were before, or when we were resisting it.
On a Sunday recently, I was overwhelmed by the power of love & the power of obedience hand in hand.
Sunset, L Street Beach, & nearly twenty of my dearest friends & family showed to see me submit to obedience & take a leap of faith in front of them.
As I told my story as to why I felt the need to submit, I looked into the eyes of people who love me so so much it could make me cry instantly thinking of how special & beloved I felt in that moment. It was a snapshot of the redemption & grace my life continuously cycles and unfolds into. A redemption of pain & uncertainty, of being bound by fears, loneliness, and abandon, of believing lies of myself. A pure redemption of myself, reminding me of how important, how delicate, and how truly loved & pure I am, right now, even with every second of my past, & every wrong decision I've made, & every wrong decision that's been made towards me.
& As I came out of the water, I was overwhelmed with the peace of my heart & the still-overwhelmed state my heart was in. overwhelmed by love & joy coming from such a pure, & renewed place in myself.
I'm a mess. My life is completely messy.
True.
But so is yours, & yours too, & hate-to-break-it-to-ya but yours too.
But how we are so beautifully connected to one another is such a powerful & redeeming factor of this life. How just a smile, or a text, or just showing up at a certain time for a certain moment of someone's life can literally put worth into another's life, is powerful.
& to realize the beauty & power in that and really show people their worth to our own lives is so important.
So thank you to those who recently have loved me so well & so intentionally & really showed me the value that I sometimes forget I have. Thank you for reminding me of beauty, & of love, & of deep joy.
& To those reading this just by chance, let this encourage you to seek those in your life who impact you, & who you care about & not let that be unknown, but allow it to enrich your relationships & be known & returned.
Danielle Nicole.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Arête
Arête: all around human excellence.
I have spent the better portion of the last two years of my life getting to know myself. Of course alongside & with that I have also gotten to know many others, met fabulous, smart, witty, encouraging, even discouraging & vicious people along the way. & I have had many jobs, some at the same time, sometimes all at the same time, others further apart, & that have taken me all over California & even out of the country for a trip last summer. I finished a degree, a prominent relationship, an undergraduate senior thesis paper, a lifestyle, and an era of my life. I have experienced myself in laughter, in love, in harmony, in loneliness, in anger, in defeat, in hope, in inspiration, and even in complete brokenness. I have built myself up from the places I have fallen, time & time again, I have built myself higher & with more depth than I ever thought possible, & I have felt more deeply, intentionally, & authentically then I can ever remember. I found out things about myself I knew & denied, things I know & love, things I know & find rather ugly, things I didn't know & am so thankful to know now, & things that I didn't know & continue to learn their place in myself and my story, my personal arête.
I know that I am strong.
I know that I am capable of loving people very deeply & intentionally.
I know that I value honesty.
I know that I am independent.
I know that I tend to care about things passionately with my whole being.
I know that I am a bit of a workaholic.
I know that I am bound by fears.
I know that I fear being good enough for those I love.
I know that I fear being forgotten.
I believe in joy.
I believe in community.
I believe in love.
I believe in Jesus Christ.
I believe in commitment.
I believe in learning, always.
I believe that if you care about someone, they should know it.
I believe that sometimes frozen yogurt is the cure-all.
I do not believe lying is the best way, ever.
I do not believe focusing on only ourselves gets us nearer to our full potential.
I do not believe that counting calories benefits us.
I do not know what to expect from tomorrow.
I do not know what career I want to pursue in my future, or now to say the least.
I do not know where love & commitment takes you.
I do not know why I can't help but give second, third, & lots of times fourth chances.
I want to know more about obligation & it's affects on & inside the human brain.
I want to see many places.
I want to read like 7 books at the same time right this minute. (thebigbookofbasketball,waterforelephants,socratesinlove,bittersweetagainagainagain,gossipgirl1,harrypotter6&7.justsayin).
I want to be more loving.
I want to learn more about repressed memory.
I want to learn, constantly.
& I am.
I am learning everyday who I am. & that this is me, & that it's all a big story,
mine.
Danielle Nicole.
"Know your limits, but never stop trying to exceed them." --Anonymous Author.
I have spent the better portion of the last two years of my life getting to know myself. Of course alongside & with that I have also gotten to know many others, met fabulous, smart, witty, encouraging, even discouraging & vicious people along the way. & I have had many jobs, some at the same time, sometimes all at the same time, others further apart, & that have taken me all over California & even out of the country for a trip last summer. I finished a degree, a prominent relationship, an undergraduate senior thesis paper, a lifestyle, and an era of my life. I have experienced myself in laughter, in love, in harmony, in loneliness, in anger, in defeat, in hope, in inspiration, and even in complete brokenness. I have built myself up from the places I have fallen, time & time again, I have built myself higher & with more depth than I ever thought possible, & I have felt more deeply, intentionally, & authentically then I can ever remember. I found out things about myself I knew & denied, things I know & love, things I know & find rather ugly, things I didn't know & am so thankful to know now, & things that I didn't know & continue to learn their place in myself and my story, my personal arête.
I know that I am strong.
I know that I am capable of loving people very deeply & intentionally.
I know that I value honesty.
I know that I am independent.
I know that I tend to care about things passionately with my whole being.
I know that I am a bit of a workaholic.
I know that I am bound by fears.
I know that I fear being good enough for those I love.
I know that I fear being forgotten.
I believe in joy.
I believe in community.
I believe in love.
I believe in Jesus Christ.
I believe in commitment.
I believe in learning, always.
I believe that if you care about someone, they should know it.
I believe that sometimes frozen yogurt is the cure-all.
I do not believe lying is the best way, ever.
I do not believe focusing on only ourselves gets us nearer to our full potential.
I do not believe that counting calories benefits us.
I do not know what to expect from tomorrow.
I do not know what career I want to pursue in my future, or now to say the least.
I do not know where love & commitment takes you.
I do not know why I can't help but give second, third, & lots of times fourth chances.
I want to know more about obligation & it's affects on & inside the human brain.
I want to see many places.
I want to read like 7 books at the same time right this minute. (thebigbookofbasketball,waterforelephants,socratesinlove,bittersweetagainagainagain,gossipgirl1,harrypotter6&7.justsayin).
I want to be more loving.
I want to learn more about repressed memory.
I want to learn, constantly.
& I am.
I am learning everyday who I am. & that this is me, & that it's all a big story,
mine.
Danielle Nicole.
"Know your limits, but never stop trying to exceed them." --Anonymous Author.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Time to breath.
Today.
The Beach.
New friends.
Sun, lots & lots of it.
Sand, lots of that too.
Swimming under a wave.
Barnes & Noble.
Picking up the Bridesmaid dress for M's wedding.
The pool.
Video message from my parents.
Heytell-ing my roomsicle for the fun of doing it.
Slurpees for 7-11-11.
time, lots of it.
time for me, all of it.
Today I, did me, if you will.
I did things I love & thought about people I love & books I want to read soon, & what I would buy if I had an extra $10, & how fun the midnight showing of the last Harry Potter movie will be, & what I want to eat for dinner, & how I could make this blog look cuter, & how I would decorate my apartment if money wasn't an issue, & how I will decorate my apartment beyond small obstacles. I thought about the reeeealllly good things in my life right now, & the things I can improve on to make other things reeeeallly good too. Things like time management, or speaking to others less abruptly & with a little more love & grace, or remembering & continually working on my summer goals.
Today my mind, & schedule, went just to me.
I cut myself off from some things.
& put myself back into place with some others.
& I think we all need that sometimes, & I definitely needed to do this right about now.
Sometimes I get so caught up in doing things for, or in a certain way, because the people around me desire them or desire them that certain way. Rearranging my schedule, or waiting for calls that don't come for hours if at all, driving all over, offering money I may or may not have, giving every last bit of myself to fit into someone else's schedule or style of doing things, all in hope of bringing them joy, and more so for them to feel my love. I have such a deep desire for those I'm close to to feel my love for them, and this desire is such a pure reflection of my deep desire to feel theirs for me. In being only in control of myself, and my own actions, and my own love, I strive to love deep, and hard, and genuinely, and this is driven by my own desire to have people in my life who love me deep, hard, & authentically in return.
The last couple of months have definitely been bringing this reflection to the surface of my life & also challenging it by many of those I consider myself close to, those I strive to love purely, and deeply, and genuinely. & In this part of me being so challenged as of late, I am feeling the weight of personal need. I definitely am one to brush aside my own personal needs, especially to fulfill someone near me's needs. But sometimes you have to receive or feel a little love in return in order to keep on giving, even if that means you have to fill your own tank & take some time to, well, do you, and to love you, & to take time to breath, just for you.
So today, today was for me, & tomorrow is a new day.
Annnnnnnd scene.
Danielle Nicole.
The Beach.
New friends.
Sun, lots & lots of it.
Sand, lots of that too.
Swimming under a wave.
Barnes & Noble.
Picking up the Bridesmaid dress for M's wedding.
The pool.
Video message from my parents.
Heytell-ing my roomsicle for the fun of doing it.
Slurpees for 7-11-11.
time, lots of it.
time for me, all of it.
Today I, did me, if you will.
I did things I love & thought about people I love & books I want to read soon, & what I would buy if I had an extra $10, & how fun the midnight showing of the last Harry Potter movie will be, & what I want to eat for dinner, & how I could make this blog look cuter, & how I would decorate my apartment if money wasn't an issue, & how I will decorate my apartment beyond small obstacles. I thought about the reeeealllly good things in my life right now, & the things I can improve on to make other things reeeeallly good too. Things like time management, or speaking to others less abruptly & with a little more love & grace, or remembering & continually working on my summer goals.
Today my mind, & schedule, went just to me.
I cut myself off from some things.
& put myself back into place with some others.
& I think we all need that sometimes, & I definitely needed to do this right about now.
Sometimes I get so caught up in doing things for, or in a certain way, because the people around me desire them or desire them that certain way. Rearranging my schedule, or waiting for calls that don't come for hours if at all, driving all over, offering money I may or may not have, giving every last bit of myself to fit into someone else's schedule or style of doing things, all in hope of bringing them joy, and more so for them to feel my love. I have such a deep desire for those I'm close to to feel my love for them, and this desire is such a pure reflection of my deep desire to feel theirs for me. In being only in control of myself, and my own actions, and my own love, I strive to love deep, and hard, and genuinely, and this is driven by my own desire to have people in my life who love me deep, hard, & authentically in return.
The last couple of months have definitely been bringing this reflection to the surface of my life & also challenging it by many of those I consider myself close to, those I strive to love purely, and deeply, and genuinely. & In this part of me being so challenged as of late, I am feeling the weight of personal need. I definitely am one to brush aside my own personal needs, especially to fulfill someone near me's needs. But sometimes you have to receive or feel a little love in return in order to keep on giving, even if that means you have to fill your own tank & take some time to, well, do you, and to love you, & to take time to breath, just for you.
So today, today was for me, & tomorrow is a new day.
Annnnnnnd scene.
Danielle Nicole.
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